where there is love, there is life.

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans. And that's all we have all done throughout our whole lives is make plans, experience while learning and enjoy what we have right in front of us.
I would like to think that I'm going to be nineteen forever, that I will always have the people in my life that I have right now and that I will always be there to help my best friends through rough times, but the reality of it is that we're all growing up and we're all moving away. We've all been faced with real life decisions and we're all going our own separate ways.
I've lived in Port Hope pretty much my whole life, I built strong friendships here I've partied here had my heart broken here and made a life here. As much as I hate it, I'm really happy with how my life has turned out so far. There has been some really rough times, and some really good times but I've learnt from them and grew.
As we grow up we learn from everything that happens in our lives, it helps us grow up. It helps us develop into individuals. I have some amazing people in my life and from where I will be living in Ottawa, one of my best friends will be in Halifax, another back home for a year, and the other in St.Catherines along with my amazing boyfriend. But as we grow, we meet better people, I expect to lose some of the people in my life at some point but for right now I don't want to let anyone go. The main thing that I have learned about life is that it goes on. Whether we move a million miles away from each other or live right down the street, whether we don't always succeed or lose something you love, life will always go on.
Everything does happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can come together.
Everything in life happens for a reason, and things that are supposed to happen will happen. I'm leaving here a very important person in my life, someone who has not been involved in my life for very long but has had a huge impact on my life. His name is Michael, I've learned so much from him already. There are some people in my life that I can admit that I've probably gained nothing from hanging out with them, I can say that there are people in my life that had so much influence on my life decisions and taught me so much but without those people who drag you down, you wouldn't need the good ones to hold you up.
Without my boyfriend or best friends in my life I don't know where I would be, very lost most likely. I go to them for advice, comfort, and happiness amongst other things.
Michael is three years older than me, and the way I know him I would think he was much older. Some of our first conversations were the most honest and truthful conversations I've ever had. I could tell this boy anything. I still can. I trust him with everything. I am moving back to Ottawa for school on saturday and he will be staying here working and saving money to come and live with me, I need this boy in my life. Just today he was offered a potential construction job in Ottawa, as if. I'm ridiculously excited. Everything seems to be falling into place like it should. Michael and I talk about the future all the time. One thing I used to believe in strongly was to never make plans, because then you will never be disappointed. I lived by that, I was always being let down. I feel completely different about him and I, I do believe that we do have future plans together and that if things really don't work out with us that it wasn't meant to be but to be honest, I have no doubts in my mind about myself and him.
I feel like my life without him would be the way it was, empty. I was freshly out of a controlling, abusive relationship and whoever I was before was dead, empty and alone even when I was around other people. My happiness diminished. I changed completely as a person.
When I'm around him I feel good again, I feel like myself. I don't want to ever go back to the way I felt before. He makes me feel like a million dollars, and even if he will never have that million dollars I'll still love him to pieces. We talk about how our live will be when we're moved in together, and how amazing it would be to wake up beside his gorgeous face every single morning. To know that when I get back from class, he will be there and when I really need someone, he will be the first one there. I can be myself around him, and he makes me so happy. I've never been this happy ever. I love you to death, and I wouldn't know what to do without you in my life, thank you for everything. You've made me the person I want to be.
I do want to someday grow old with him, learn from life, experience everything I want to experience and have no regrets. One of the things that I've learned is that money will never buy happiness. I know that Mike and myself talk about all the things we would buy if we had an unlimited amount of funds, all the cars, cash and things we could spend endless amounts of money on will never make me happier than him. I know that if I had all those things, had my dream car, vacation home and huge ring around my finger, without him all those things would mean nothing. I would never be able to enjoy life without him holding my hand through it.
If we believe it or not, we are all in control of our own lives. We are the reason why we're sad and we're the reason why we're happy. So don't wait for happiness. go out and find it. right now.
I've found where my happiness comes from, from the people around me. From the love of my life, from my best friends and at times my family.
Without these things, I'd never want to experience growing up, learning or growing from the experiences that we encounter.
We're all on a journey through life, and it's up to us who we're going to bring on our adventures.


"Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."

Oscar Wilde